a creature like any other creature

beyond my will and intentions

now things have changed

I've resigned only briefly not completely to behave

to believe the dictionary

to fall back on knowing

falloff fallopian fallout fallow

fallow
land that is allowed to lie idle during a growing season

June July August

to fallow
to plow harrow and break up a plot without seeding

the body plot

this is not my plot

to harrow and be harrowed
to fuck

harrowing

harrow
a cultivating implement set with spikes spring teeth or disks and used primarily for pulverizing and smoothing soil

this is not my plot

we're writing a different plot

fallow
of a light yellowish brown color

green fallow
land made rich and free from weeds by means of some crop as turnips or potatoes

fallow characterized by inactivity

fallow
untrained inactive

said of the mind